confess of a lifestyle

when else can i do ?

2011-01-29T20:40:00.000-08:00

last night was damira's birthdayy . me and nabila yazid went to ou earlier than the rest to follow damira to find the dress for the day . so we walked around in pain !!! did i mention we were wearing heels ? i wore the 5 inches and she wore 3 inches . this is my second time wearing heels in my life and its a fucking disaster . LOL . my legs were in pain and we were walking around a lot more than we expected . at last damira bought a dress at miss sulfridge and it was at 3 . the rest are coming at 7 . so as usual we hit the pool after met up with birthday girl's boyfriend . we played a lot of games like 6 rounds and as usual , i'm the champion . i won every game i played :p HOW AMAZING YEAHHH ? say yesss ! i should go for a pool competition :p hahahahaha . bajet .

nwayy , a lot of people arrived when we're at the pool place . we played for hours and cost almost 70 bucks . i think the place is just not cheap . to compared with sunway , we only have to pay 15 bucks PER HOUR ! and the place are wayyyyyy better ! they even have a bar okayyyy -.-

so , i barefooted for an hour cause i cant stand in heels . my weight is pressuring me . now i know why fashion is painful . 100% agreeeee . nabila wore heels too and she had blister . she walked kinda funny , i cant stop laughing when i see her walking . but shes my FWEEEEEENN :D my girlfweeeeeen :p love her to death . syameen came along and few other people . it was funnnn at the pool place .

the clock hit 7 and we're out to TGIF for dinner . damira already booked the place two days earlier . as i hoped it was to be, the table was freakin' long . there's like 20-30 people . when i saw them coming , i told syameen about the bill . "i bet someone will not pay enough or didnt pay AT ALL and we're about to go through the "short of cash" term . I BET SO ! " she said yeahh . drama's coming soon . we had fun taking pictures . most of the pictures are with dinni . he's such a lazy ass bummer to upload yesterday and today . he texted me saying he's gonna upload late-errr by today . so i cant show you now . i'll put the pictures in the upcoming post . dont worry ;)

i didnt eat cause me and nab ate earlier that day . i ate spaghetti marinara and shared waffles and she had spaghetti cabonara . imagine the bill was 30 bucks for both of our meals . DAMN CHEAP . we cant believe our eyes at first but it was true enough . hehehe :p i chose the place yawww . see i'm awesome . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH . okayy wtv

after the dinner , drama was on . short of cash , 300 bucks ! everything cost 700+ :p lol . i paid for what i had . which was the strawberry lemonade slush . after paying it and damira was upset and moody after what happened . i'm about to get fucked up and me and a few other friends went to chillies . did our thing and ....... the rest are not to be told by anyone . so , yeahh . what a fun night . a lot of laughing gas and i already miss it :(

emo shit

2011-01-22T10:59:00.000-08:00

as far as i live , nothing surprise me . i'm learning an advance arab with my arabian friend , i stayed back at school two times in a week and spend it at the field for hours with my skin burning and causes pimples on my face . i realized i'm getting more blurr when it comes to conversation . my hearing sucks . i'm still sick . ichy dotts started to appear on my legs , like everywhere . my school send tons of emails to my mom even homeworks and that sucks to hear her voice shouting across the hall asking whether i've finished it ? i cried once at school cause of the heat and the stressed i've been avoiding all these while helping others . i tend to care about other people than putting myself first . i woke up at 2 pm and now its 3 am and i'm nowhere near to be sleepy .

so thats it for these past few days . school's fine . i'm so excited to join the gymnast for the extra curricular at school . i think its cool . i'm lame , SO WHAT ? i join the netball team and the teacher advised us to jog at the school field before the school starts . i'm still thinking about it . i do go to school quite early but i dont know anyone in the team who does that ? thinking bout the benefits ; healthy , no need to jog every evening , i'll get enough sleep for sure .

watching megan fox getting uglier made my life . lol xD she had too much surgery and botox . fuck fakeness holywood celebrities .

as you can see , i jump to another story so easily and divided it into paragraphs to not make you readers confused . i type whatever's in my mind . its funny when i read it again cause its all messed up . well thats me . i'm nowhere near to be a "smart ass organize nerdy neat" type of girl . i have a very big space to fill up my thoughts with everything at the same time . (y)

regret cant do anything

2011-01-15T19:13:00.000-08:00

i ignored you when you told me you love me , i look at you like you're an idiot for waiting , i lost the temper in me when you keep on fighting for attention , i showed you every emotions i have except one , for loving you back . id always loved you in my heart but i never wanted our friendship to be the other way around . we were so close and happy but something came between us or shall i say all of us that include everyone hating me , even you . violence took over . my voice disappeared and i never complain . broke my heart and i never give up on putting it back together . i never give up on you . never in my mind , nor the precious heart that i've been keeping . its a waste of time , its a waste of tears , its a waste of voice for shouting , its a waste of money for the cigarettes , its the waste of life . out of millions of people in this world , i'm still waiting for you ...secretly .

its a crapp

2011-01-15T18:58:00.000-08:00

my life is getting stranger every time . its like you walk pass by the mirror everyday and one time you see something else . what i see was me drowning at the end of the day .

jauhar's leaving us all , nabil specs too , why not all of us leave -..- saddening . bye jauhaaaaaaaaar .

life's a trash

2011-01-13T10:55:00.000-08:00

life's a trash . i'm having a bad fever . good times , blast times is not here yet . idk where the hell did it all went crying every night in my room like a freakin' emo girl -.- i'm fucked up . felt like making a suicide . i was out of my mind , making my own suicide note but fever keeps me away from doing that . i guess allah still loves me . i dream of praying to allah since i've lost my happiness . it just ran away from me and i couldnt chase it back . friends come and go , bestfriends ditch and backstab , what's next ? fml .

its nice to hear someone cares about me but i dont have feelings for that person . i know it will effect him if he knew what i mean , i just wanna be bestfriends . this had happened when i dont love him back , he had forgotten all about me and pushed me away like i'm a dirt . this happens . idk what else to fix . i cant fix everything in life , thats what keeps me frustrated when something happen . as if , i'm not perfect . i know humans are not perfect but to be as perfect as you want to is not impossible .

stoned . if only allah gave us 2 chance to live on earth . means we could die twice . i would be the first to make a suicide on this sort of problems and see how people around me would react .

-fucked up

school days

2011-01-06T21:56:00.000-08:00

1st day of school

it was fine . i met a few people and the other new kid name yana was very friendly . i like her a lot . she funny , bubbly and just fine . reminds me of hanis in bj . i miss bj but well , i dont belong in that town anymore . families are gone . it was tiring at first to come back at 3.30 . felt like a month ! but i didnt sleep after i came back . i did all my homeworks and shitz . LOL , new me this year . i found out what i'm gonna be when i grow up . at last , an ambition i've been waiting for many many years . i'm gonna be an architect . i think its awesome . i'm taking add maths . people said that it was a subject that meant to be hard and gonna smash your brain but i love it . since the first day i studied the subject at home all by myself xD excited . i love algebra and linear equations . i;m weird in my own way . so yeahh .

2nd day of school

at last , i met all of em in the group . damira , nabila yazid , harry potter , al alfi , syameen , juliana , sabrina , jazlin and the rest . they're funny and talks a lot . they may not have the same personality that i'm used to at my old school but its a good way to get a new start . most of em' are in subscience and purescience . only three of us chose arts . me and yana's in arts 1 and poor girl nabila's on her own in arts 2 . she's afraid cause there's no one in the group is with her . but we still hangs out together . even in different classes . cool isnt it ? haha . all of em' bring their phones to school and so did i . its cool . texting with damira at the other class , asking how physics and craps going on and shitz . lol , what do u expect ? i'm fucking bored here !!!

3rd day of school

had a briefing on changing classes . i'm still in arts one . the school is drama free except nabila and sabrina . they fought about something idk what it is but they still dont talk to each other since last year . they hangs out in the same group but dont really talk to each other . for me thats insane . they should've just forgive each other but evryone has EGO ! fuck ego ! haha . yeahh . i was bored in class and i went to talk to a boy name aqif that i never talked to and never planned on talking to him in a million years . LOL , i was effing bored . make me go nuts . i'm like all over the place . so i went and talk to him about stuffs we do outside of school . he's cool . a friend that i would love to be bestfriends . somehow he's weird and acts like he wants to be more than friends after we chat . i got pranked by adrian ! fugg u . the last bell rings and it was time to go home , i was excited to go home and was rushing and hugging everyone for goodbye .. then there came adrian . he and his bb on his hand , askng for my number and my bb pin . i gave him what he wants and went away . i thought nothing could happen cause its adrian . suddenly it was aqif's phone . YEAH I GOT PRANKED . i think he knew that i wont give him my number so he used adrian to do it -.- we chat a long the way till today .

4th day of school

nothing much happen . it was study study study and buy more exercise books and shitz . zzzzzz

5th day of school

all dressed up for sports events . its just for points . called sukantara . so yeahh . everyone's ready and hit the field . it wasnt a bright sunny day . instead it was just nice . grey clouds covered the bright sun but it didnt rain . i love it the way it is . yeah man ! ended it with a day full of crap . didnt study the whole day but the best part of the school is when we get to go back home early than the rest of the public school . came back at 12.20 . AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!

i;m back home and getting ready to go out to bj . farewell to jauhar . he's going away to RMC . fuck that school . gay school . idk where it is located but i think its pretty far . i hate people come and go . especially to boarding school :( al alfi is going to rmc too! NOOOO ;( FML

may 2011 be a better year

2011-01-02T14:36:00.000-08:00

its 6.30 in the morning and i'm wrapped up with the towel , BLOGGING . how weird . well , i just feels like it . so , past few days was okayy . after i got back from australia .. it was devastating at first to breathe in th hot air of malaysia but get used to it after awhile . the flight was TIRING ! felt like i was about to faint at home . my room was sparkling and well organized by my maid . thnks :D

so i'm nervous , anxious , excited , crazy and happy at the same time to meet new people in the new school . especially when i dont know anyone except damira and nabila yazid . hope they'll talk to me :| hope nothing will change . love them to death . i wanna make a new start to my life this year with everything new and nothing old . its quite sad to leave the other school cause i've been studying there for 2 and a half years . memories . people come and go . fight . i was quite a trouble maker for the discipline teachers . running away from the teachers after they saw me skipped their classes :p but now , its different . HOPEFULLY ! finger cross ! :D

waking up to jersey shore !

2010-12-29T16:33:00.000-08:00

it has always been true in my life

it was 10 o'clock in the morning and i was about to wake up but i pretended sleeping cause my parents are going out to the market which i HATE THE MOST ! out of nice million places to go , their fav place is the freakindisgustingsmelly market . like , HELLOOOOO ? we're on a vacation . u dont need to spend hours there at the market . they're ridiculously weird . YEAP !

as soon as the last sound of the door closed , me and my sister wake up and do whatever we wanna do . i grab my laptop and watch jersey shore right away and she's up to call her boyfriend at 7 am there back home . her boyf doesnt go to sleep till its 12.30 pm . for now , i've finished watching jersey shore season 1 and 2 in 2 and a haf day . now i feel like watching a movie but i dont really know what movie should i watch ? remind me of a website where i watch all the free movies . http://www.letmewatchthis.com . try to choose sockshare / megavideo .

i overheard my parents talking this morning and they were saying about coming back at 4 pm . like thats gonna happen . but if they happen to be that cruel i'm still gonna be fine . we have 4 days to go . i dont mind spending my time in the apartment all day . its like enjoying my time alone . i need it . ever since the YESTERDAY THANG IN THE MORNING happened .. so today's fine . at least i dont need to deal with it . LOL xD easy to say , i'm known to be miss grumpy every morning . especially when its not my time to wake up . like babies that dont get enough sleep , they cry but i get mad at everything even when its the right thing to do :p HAHAHA .

thats it for now . later

in australia , melbourne

2010-12-29T05:17:00.000-08:00

had a little tension going on this morning with my sister , my mom and my dad . we planned the night before for my dad to drive us to victoria street . where the shops just happens . then , i woke up and get dressed as well as the other two ladies in the house . but then as i walk inside my dad's room and there he is in his boxer doing his e-mails . all of us are ready except for him . i hate waiting . got that from my dad .. and now he's doing it . i got pissed . i did ask him nicely to get ready cause all of us are ready and waiting for HIM for more than an hour !?! guess what ? he blew me off by shouting to my face . i was pissed as hell . i just walked out . then , my sister asked for the comb . she sits nearer to the kitchen counter where the comb is and asked me to get it for her . i was like , u can reach it !!!! fuck it man . my mom was shouting to me too, saying that i've been acting sooo lazy and she cant stand it . what a fucked up family i have . then i got up and walked straight to the kitchen counter and threw it to her . but it accidently HIT HER ON THE HEAD . she give me this slap/hit? i dont know what should i call cause it was like the girly thaaang type of slap . bitch slapp !! yeahhh .. then , of course . complain to my mom . how old is she ? 6 ? you are 21 for god sake !!!! urghh !!! i shouted at her then my dad got up and claimed i was the guilty one . fuck that mannnnn !

he had a shower after giving me a looong loooooong loooooooooooooooooong stupid useless assfcknghole madtalk . i was with my laptop watching jersey shore . woohh , i didnt hear a thing whatever he said . like wtv . so thats how stubborn i am :p it was 2 o'clock and the shops here mostly close at 5 . a very short time for us to shop . reached at the destination and my sister apologized . LOL xD she was childish . i didnt talk much after what happened . i just realize my ego's higher than i expected .

i googled some exercises for toning my body like abs , thighs and hips . it all came up in my head after i bought a magazine and i saw megan fox's body . fuck that . i want that body soooo bad i started to save the websites for toning my body and note them all . i needed that . haha xD lame-ass .

as yall heard .. i'm shifting school next year . its nice to get away from the tensions inside of me being in that school with the old mates . shifting to sapura smart school to top it all of NO CHANCE ON SKIPPING SCHOOL !!! :( hahaha . thats the main thing i search for it in that school . it has more than 10 cctv's ? the main gates are HUGE AND TALL . almost like jail gates . one of the creepiest school gates i have ever seen . LOL xD

Wow wow

2010-12-27T04:29:00.000-08:00

Hello there . I know I know it's been awhile yeah ? I'm in Australia and it's the end of the year . Soon to say goodbye to 2010. Sorry for the "too long being away" . I started another blog . Lol . It's habit . You must have wonder why did I do that ? Well I thought of starting a new blog is like starting a new beginning after ups and downs . Then , out of nowhere , a fan of mine send me a message on Facebook. AHDIYANA :D yeah . That's how I get myself on track . bla blablabl the rest of the year was a blahhhh .

Let's skip the boring part .I'm now in melbourne as I told u earlier . It's fun here . It's our first time for a short vacayy . We usually have our time off for two weeks and this time is a way of change . It's gonna be a week only . We can't imagine . LOL . School is getting nearer . Nwayy , before we flew here , my mom's friend stayed here and my mom did asked about how's the weather and how is it going there ? Is it raining ? Cold ? And she said it's summer . So we brought shorts , tank tops and slipper . Well i brought my vans shoes . Its one and only shoes I brought heren:D and when we flew here .. Me and my sister went out first .. Out of the airport and it was freezing cold . Obviously we came unprepared . Horrible .stupid !! Hahahahaha . I brought a pair of jeans . We didn't bring any sweaters or whatsoever . Planned on spending our money to buy sweaters and pants more but we forgot that we flew and reached on Christmas day . The shops are closed . Had a laugh out of it . The next day was heaven . Boxing dayyyy . shopped a lot of clothes . It was fine . The weather is still cold . Maybe it was much colrr back then and when the temperature gets higher its called summer . For us , Malaysian , so much of summer . It's like living in the freezer !! Not kidding .

After we reached at the shopping place .. We quickly ran into a shop cause it's too cold out there and it's hotter inside the shops . After paying we get ready to ruuuuuun again and search for another shop to chill in .
Hahahah . guess what the people here wears ? Tanktops and highwaisted shorts without any cardigan or tights underneath . Damn son ;O hahaha . Funny us . Haha . We were the odd ones . Saying it's cold its cold while the rest are eating ice creams and enjoying the weather .

what is it ?

2010-03-31T07:06:00.001-07:00

future thinking
when u're gone , i'll be waiting
when u're in front of me , i ignore you .
i dont know what i want myself .
how can i get myself through ? :/

so put the blame on me

2010-03-25T22:26:00.000-07:00

put ur whole pressure on me ,

put all the guilts on me ,

put the wrong doings on me .

i'm not heartless . think about that . i never think far , never thought that you guys would do such thing .

its eating me inside , its killing me .

my life's shaking , you get what you want . to teach me a lesson , that's too much .

each question , questions myself who am i ? you showed me you know me better than myself .

you proved me i'm always wrong , please take this slowly . my mind is blowing off with all of you coming .

i'll vanish from ur eyes , from laughing ur jokes everyday and from listening to ur problem like a family we stayed. this is what i get in return .

if only i know what's coming ? what's going ?

reality's diff and world shakes me . i'm asking for a favour ,that's impossible for you to make it happen . forgive my sins , i'll make sure i i'll run far away .
neighbourhood .

fatso fatso fatso

2010-03-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

look at that yummy shgummy lappy lazy daisy CHOC :O daaaamn , getting fatter . last few days , me and my maid made barbeque garlic beef together and i ate it with i think half of the WHOLE RICE IN THE rice cooker . and here's the result , i'm weighing around 48 kg :O i know , i dont look that fat but my TIGHS are bigger than ever . i looked like an idiot when i'm standing and crouching my back with the WHOLE ATTENTION on my flabbio stomach . EMBARRASSING , i'm not sure if i'll wear shorts again . maybe after i worked out and lose some weight like ELMA . ooooh , she's my BODY IDOL for the year . i bet she can keep that body balance forever . haish , fuckyeahprettypeople :'(

look at yourself

2010-03-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

thanks for making me the centre of your world . omg , u're making me more famous than ever . thank you very much . can i please know how old are you ? cause u're acting like a kiddo . puh-lease , stay away , dont act like u're big . wake up , face the reality . no one plays that game anymore . -megan frog

i told u imma put it here kan CYA ! hahahaha , hope it works ! :D

pictures lepaking

2010-03-24T05:08:00.000-07:00

cya left , behind white shirt is ashman , right in front me , behind there , ~~DUNNO WHO~~ ? hahaha :p

LMAO

2010-03-23T23:40:00.000-07:00

HELLO .

feeling kind of hyper today . just now , at and IN school . me , cya and damdam skipped for three classes for a stupid laughing gas . LMAO ; damira passed out while we were walking out of the bathroom in front of zeta's class . HAHAHAHA ! ROFLMAO ! me and cya cant stop laughing our ass off for that . damn that was so funny , at last she's finally alive from the dead . HAHAHA . then we walked around the school laughing like crazy MANIACS . with NO REASON !

damira damira -.- that was awesomely stupid , hilarious !

thought about this before ?

2010-03-23T23:32:00.000-07:00

you've always acted tough , you've always think u're big . did you knw no one respects you . you live in your own world with those sisterhood's so called urs . u ppl are all the trash in school . u'd never realize how stupid u've been acting , hope one day u'll find out HOW remarkably stup you are . to compare urself in reality world , you're just the stupid tiny ants .

dope

2010-03-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

i dont make a good first impression .

yes yes yes

2010-03-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

sometimes life can be deceiving.

what's this ? :/

2010-03-20T05:29:00.000-07:00

are u still standing beside me ?
i cant seem to feel anything
not even your breathing ,
nothing touches me , not even the wind .

are you there ?
i thought u'll never leave me ?
what's happening ?
can you please tell me ?

questions i leave for you ,
all i received is the same bloody thing ,
are you leaving me hanging ?
answer me please .

does all this solves the problem ?
we've been through this many times ,
i want to make it right ,
or you wanna suffer from this all night ?

all night long ,
i cant wait no more ,
i'm desperate for happiness ,
but you just keep on coming for the worse .

immature ?

2010-03-18T03:12:00.000-07:00

i noticed for sometimes that i'm being immature . oh yes , i know u do too . especially when i'm in a fight , i almost fight about everything , i dont know why i cant deal with no fighting . i dont come from a PEACEFUL family . its just in my blood . some girls , think life is all about love . that's what matters to them . i do take it seriously about love , happiness and all but fight always comes first ? why ? i cant control my bloody temper , yeap that's why . anger is always in me , its just the waiting for the right timing to blow it all of . see , IMMATURE :p haha

shoot em up' YEAH

2010-03-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow , hold on girl ! what does your foot eats ? me ?

"dia bagaikan makanan kaki aku"

hold up

this isnt fair when i dont do anything to it . i wont just let it go . i know you're VERY close to her doesnt mean you can say anything about me ?

i was holding everything behind about you , and try to keep the anger to myself . oh no , you just blow it off like that ? let me blow it off my way now . haish , dont call yourself a GANGSTER in your sisterhood ? pfft , if u really are , i wanna see who will really kiss ur leg and SALUTE kau do ? haishhh . susah aa cm ni . haha .

i dont even know if you really get what i mean HONEY ?

just get back from sunway with cya , amalina & her sister , haziq , imran , izzado , fazrul . went and eat at a&w , watch movie 'alice in wonderland (without 3D)' and , went shopping for haziq's shirt , lastly kaaareeeeeoooookeee ! then , mom came by . went lasenza -.-

after that , went & lepak + eat for dinner at cafe , with amin ,haris , wansu , paan , and few ppls .. missing out haziq ! :D bodoh -.-

do you ppl get it ?

2010-03-14T17:01:00.001-07:00

blogger is about you , posting ur daily life on what happened? or whatever you wanna talk about and remain it as pulicity . i JUST DONT GET IT when ppl privates it . who's gonna see ur blog ? haiyaaaaaaaaaaa -.- what laa

randoms

2010-03-14T16:51:00.000-07:00

pictures i think its pretty . diff than before . not including ppl ! haha

all of the pictures . are all in my phone ! oh , READ MY NEXT POST !

seasons

2010-03-14T03:29:00.000-07:00

sorry , long time didnt post . i didnt go anywhere , its just i mls wanna type . updates on facebook je .

so here comes the season which&when my mood changes to "LAZY AS HELL" . i'm at my cousin's house . maryam :) putu mayam ! (on the left)

bought new phone , blackberry storm 2 . not that into bold anymore :p coming wednesday , going to farris house for gambling poker NIGHT ;) on friday last week , had roadrun which is crosscountry but the school name it "roadrun" . idkwhy ? and my legs still hurts . SUCKS -.- slept at my cousin's house and here i am now . coming holidays , i dont really have any plans . but going to fill it up ...

manicure padicure at opi / near house .

check out dance class at taipan

clean my face from pimples or wtv at concorde

watch movie alice in wonderland and if there's luck , i would LOVE to watch valentines !

and the rest of the days , TUITION . fck it :(

downloaded a few songs, and still struggles for MORE nice songs . i'm into any genre excepts for screamo , metalic or all those very brutal ...

american idol ! :D so into it rite now . so yeah , VOTE FOR DIDI BENAMI AND TODRICK HALL ! yeah man ! i'm so in love with the song terrified by kara dioguardi because of didi . she made her own version of that song and i keep on singing that song ! ;D hope she stays till the end of the season .

hmmmm , what else ? oh yeah , i dunno what's the difference between revolution and resolution ? is this right ? : 2010 revolution ? or 2010 resolution ?

anything you can contact me through facebook :shazza fadzil . NO BINTI !

i walk it out

2010-02-25T22:32:00.000-08:00

did ya know tht anyone sits beside me in class just cant study and always gets warning with the teachers . i make them laugh , talk alot , question themselves and confuse . hahahahha . ask ashman & alif lamim ! ahaha .

i havent been out for quite aloooong time . all i do was hangin out with neighbours and around the area . i made a deal with my dad yesterday ! if he GIVE me my blackberry storm , then i'll study hard . or my education just make ur "JAW DROP" in a bad day . all zero bby! haha , my threat worked out and he's trying to figure out ways to help me :p oh well , i'm his fav ones . wht to do ? its meant to be tht way daddy.

for my first and last time in my whole entire life , i queued at KFC for an hour just for my brother . he wanted the chicken so badly and daddy was LAZY to queue , so i did . and for that , i hope he'll give me my blackberry soon , before the march test result comes out ! well , that was the deal . SUPPOSEDLY ! haha .

ashman and alif was sooo gay and they fell in love with my english teacher . ITS A SHEMALE : O haha . she's fat , big butt , eergh UGLY , and she made the eye scann surgery . so for now , and forever she dont need to wear the spectacles. but still, she's ugly . she like to do with her hair . diff style everyday . one word for that , still ugly . haha . pity her . but SOMEHOW , ashman and aliff were sooooo disgusting that when she passed by our table , they'll be like "oh my goshhh , she's so AMAZING , her voice makes me cumm , goddammit bby come over here sit on my lap and so on . "EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE . i cnt stop saying tht . eeergh , BARF*

so , for the whole week , that's all i did . nothng interesting and yeaah . school was and is STILL gonna fill with drama . shit you ppl that plays war games and its not even your roll . u bitches , are all fakers and useless in this world . sinners !

was it fun

2010-02-23T06:21:00.000-08:00

ANNICK GOUTAL - one of the most expensive and creative perfumes in the world . she started from young . she experiments some of the henri ... perfume ingredients and made her own personal perfumes . ppl started to comment and she opened a boutique . and oh did i mention that she worked really hard on investigating the ingredients and blablablaa ? it took her for about 7 years ! :O

my mom bought it and i cnt believed it . isnt it cooool ? i thought of asking her one for me , but why should i ? when she'll ALWAYS buy for herself . different fragrance . :p i'll just wear it whatever it is . haha .

my day was okay . not the knd of BAD DAY . but it was okay . was so excited to jog for the day after school but HZQ made me waited for YEARS . nnt nnti , lama lama HUJAN dh . bbi -.-" haish . i realized that i spent the day lepak . from 5 pm . before that , i spent my time in front of the computer . youtube-ing about krumping . AWESOME :D

mom just reached home safely , and i was like . SO HOW ? my dance class . and she asked me to google and i found on this one webbiesite :D OMG , so excited . hahaha . its at damansara uptown ;p YEAH MAN .

hello MRS.E

2010-02-21T22:32:00.000-08:00

a friend i lost . how hurt i was , the poem from the title "is this what u call happy ?" . now we had found the bastard behind this .

my door just open and u had slammed ,

u know what ? , now i dont give a damn .

are u happy what u had found ,

its time for us to push u around ,

u'd just went out of bound ,

lets make u look at us high up ,

u wanna know how ?

its when u're from the ground .

the stories u made , made us blown ,

bullshit lies , u think its fun ?

we're gonna hunt you down ,

and u aint got no place to run .

everyone believed by what u've said ,

now u're proud and glad ,

this isnt finish yet ,

have u had enough of being the bad ?

it looks like u're asking us for a threat ?

do u have something to say darl ?

it isnt tht baaad

2010-02-19T23:34:00.000-08:00

awwww look at that LIL cuties 8)

soon , one day I HAVE TO tame a baby tiger , and play with it everyday till it eats me . hahaha . no , i mean , till forever and when i;m old , its the tiger i could depend on . perhaps it wont eat me -.-

i watched this stupid movie of indonesian banned movie . search it on youtube . the movie called mau lagi "ML".

imma gonna stay home all day long and not TRYING to go out . wanna get my legs all shine and white . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA . laugh it all out . i know its impossible . but i realize i;m getting darker every time i go out to hangout . my legs are like BARBECUE chickens -.- anyway , mummy's gonna cook steak for me for being so kind and generous to not make any trouble while daddy's away to amsterdam . he's coming back on monday . and there goes my holiday . SUCH A WASTE :'( but , excited for a few stuffs . dad's coming back and cant wait for my louis vuitton(HAHA) and mom's gonna discuss with the choreographer i mean , the dance class soon . next week . my toilet's gonna get fixed . the water heater in my toilet doesnt seem to work at all . sucks -.- and tired of using parents toilet cause theirs .. ergh , so many cockroaches . everything must be done next week which is after raya cina . tmrrw , elma emira's surprise birthday party at burger king ! 4 pm . everyone is welcome :)

watcha say ?

2010-02-19T03:49:00.000-08:00

awww :) isnt it cute ? that zebra teddy :D

i bought this book of sophie kinsella's (last year). the limited edition . its RM78+ . bt i didnt even read it yet . my mom pissed about why the hell did i go and buy that book ? hahaha . i just love it cause its big and bulky + prettttyy . hahahah . that's all .

for these past few days , i dont really know why on earth am i doing with translating history from bm to english myself . kind of hard to translate but its easier to understand . it helps me a lot . my history tutor tried to help me with that . but i just dont get her translation . her english sucks -__-" sorry to say but u're in college and took the english course plus ur english sucks .

met yusuf today and now just got back from lepak at bbq . around my house area . we all grow up in front of each other's eyes . familia ;D

here's some pictures

was checking his phone . videos of his friends jadi gila -.-

awwwwww ;)

did ya know ?

2010-02-18T05:36:00.000-08:00

did ya know that my password for blog and facebook is a cursing word and theres " :) " at the end .

and did ya know that my password for my myspace is something to do with LOVE :D hehehe .

went sunway today . with soph and her friends and a friend of her friend , and a friend of the boyfriend and BLABLABLA ... went to search for my hoodie shirt . but cant find at any of the shops . all expensive -.-

i wanna share a story about my sister experience .

she and her friends went out at night to go for a karaoke . it was at the curve redbox . then , they already knew that u'll pay when u're done karaoke-ing . so they did , but they seat at one corner . i mean , only four of em and the room was pretty big . and when they'll are done . went out to pay , and the guy said . so , there's five of you , its RM... . then , they all were like confused ? FIVE ? where got ? only 4 ! the guy said 5 and they said NO ! its 4 only . here it is , one two three four ! then , the guy said , ohh okayy . maybe ur friend ? and they said , NOOOO . then , the guy showed the cctv to them . here it is , five of you . suddenly at the CCTV , there's this long hair girl sitting at the other end without moving a little bit . GODDAMMIT when i heard that , i wanted to scream :O seriously . its the ghost . she sat there for few hours wehh . and when they went out . she also went out . FUCK isnt it ? :O

trying to figure it out

2010-02-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

my mom asked me to stop skating and join something else that's healthy and gives you benefit . i've heard suggestions such as - dance class , modeling , guitar / drum , volley ball (cause he thinks its sexy . STUPID! ) , golf , and etc . its all usuf's idea . awww :') thanks but i think i can go for dancing class and would love to join the HIP HOP . hahaha xD well , its cool u know ? :p

for the past YEARS i've joined alot of sports games . such as , swimming , tennis , badminton's for fun , cycling , basketball , gymnasts , taekwondo -__-" and etc . LOL , the sports freak is just in my blood . my mom's side . there' only one thing missing in my family's blood , SHOPPING OBSESSION :'(

btw , i think there's something wrong with my blogskin . it seems like i cant put my picture as LARGE size cause if i do , the picture will be cut 1/3 of it !!! or sometimes half . eeeergh SUCKS -.-

lets see a big dream of mine

2010-02-17T03:31:00.000-08:00

so , when i grow up i want to see myself living in green house . special ones . like these

recognize this ? from the movie " when a stranger calls " ! awesome house . damn freakin rich -.-

if i plan to live with a couple of friends , this will just suit perfectly

i will have this house if i'm ready to have a BIG family . what a fun house . perfect house for a party TOO ! ;D

i just LOVE THE WHOLE CONCEPT OF THE SWIMMING POOL . i will make my own swimming pool just like THESE when i have a house. dont care if its number 1 house or two or three , i just love it ! ;D

do you know that the 5th richest man in the world lives here ? awesome isnt it ? its a HOUSE , not a show room or an apartment or whatever . for the first time when i saw this , i said " HOLLY MOTHER , JESUS CHRIST 8O " !

not to forget , this lil mansion HAHA . i will also put this at the swimming area , for our guest lil room and can also use it for a barbecue for the whole family ? awwww :') isnt it gorgeous ? :D

oh and in the INSIDE of the house , here it is . my future living room :')

the kitchen will be like THIS !

this bedroom wouldnt hurt :p

HALLELUJAH BABYY ;D

the hallway ppl ;)

this is my garden .

do u knw what this is ? hahaha , its a TREE HOUSE :D

the closet bby. for me and my future husband . or if i dont have one , OOH , DAMN this is just perfect for myself :D

so , now u've seen my BIG HUGE HUMONGOUS dream house or should i call it as my CRIB ? hahaha . teen crib . i will definitely marry to a rich man yo ! ;D hahaha .

i'm an early bird

2010-02-16T18:54:00.000-08:00

weird things about me ;

i dont know why when i'm bored especially NIGHT times even though its at 7 i can easily fell a sleep just like that ?

i somtimes laugh when ppl call me an idiot .

i dont like to poop , i sometimes hold on to it . HAHAHAHAHAHAH :p

i dont use my pyjamas , instead i use mom's or dad's shirt and a pair of shorts or without . their shirts are cooling , cause its tripple XL and when i wear it , its like a dress . reaches to the knee point .

school days . i hate waking up early but at 7 is good, tht's why i'm late EVERYDAY . and i dont brush my teeth directly after i woke up but i will definitely shower first and when i'm totally ready with my shoes on for school then only i brush my teeth . and i dont do breakfast that often .

i like to google about everything . i'm a freak googlerholic xD example when i'm off to cut my hair at a barber shop , i'll just google hairstyles . and many more ... etcetc.

i am a very bad planner .

(i'll post a few more in the coming updates ) gotta mandi now . ciaoo ;D

is this wht u call happy ?

2010-02-16T07:00:00.000-08:00

we were all together ,

together in one ,

hoping would stay forever ,

safest place we'd found .

never thought that we would be apart ,

from safe to danger ,

i thought i could trust from heart to heart ,

one messes up i know she didnt mean it ,

but please dont treat me like a total stranger .

now i've seen , my eyes had opened ,

how could you do this ?

dont you miss the past few years ?

i cnt choose sides , cause that's not who i am ,

do u even know me now ?

or do u just care about ur self ?

now i felt that we're so far more than a mile ,

are you happy now ?

loosing the ones i've trusted ,

oh well it isnt easy ,

do u find it as a problem ?

cause i do if u really look into the poem .

bake bake bake

2010-02-15T19:29:00.000-08:00

Drew this and i know its UGLYY -.- well , in memories cause i lost it . hahaha .

yesterday , i filled up my days on BAKING cookies & bread . and ooooh , and my aunt made me the french braid hair ;D

there's the oatmeal , sugar , butter , and few types of flour .

there it is , u can see one of the cookie looks like eeeergh cause it broke into pieces . mom touched it when its not ready YET -.-

looooook at that wasted chocolate bread -.- its HUGE ! my mom cooked this while i was away with miss C at ou . reached home and here what happens : "what on earth is that ??" EWWWW . what a waste . she put all my hersheys chocolate bar to make this disgusting bread that no one eats untill now . haishh -__-" have to wait another week to go to coldstorage again . :'(

there you go. hahaha .that's all for now :p bubyeee .

aggravated

2010-02-15T06:13:00.000-08:00

at times i feel like writing and now HERE I AM . again for the third time posting for the day .

i have a story that i wanna share . ME , aka the nail saloon shop cause i have alooooooooot i mean ALOOOOOOOOOOOT of nail polish . everytime i go out , its like my OCD that i need to buy at least 1 nail polish . addicted xD hahah . then , my sister SHAMEEN and my lil bro likes to play around with my precious nail polish and my sister likes to wear it and misplace it . so , when i wanna wear that coulour that she used the last time , she dont really knw where the hell she put it -___-"

one fine day , i figured out why not put it in my SAFETY BOX . i have one , alaaaa the one that u use it to put ur JEWELRY in with the pincode thingy . so i did . i thnk there's about more than 20 nail polish . its been awhle i didnt try to open it cause i cnt wear it on school days . week days approaching the next day so , tht night i tried to open and the battery was out . daddy gave me the keys to open it . and i havent buy the battery yet . and untill now . cause i thought i'll just USE that key -.- and the last time i saw the KEY is before i was off to JAKARTA . which is last year 2009 :(

STUP SAFETY BOX . makes me wanna kill it . so , its a history . i;m afraid to tell my parents cause they'll GO CRAZY . they have the same type of safety box as i do and if someone stole .. that person can easily open and take the passports , money , jewelry and guns inside there. xD hahaha , dont believe when i said that GUN . just making it interesting . but wtv it is, STILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL :O idk what to do now .

ohh damn*!

2010-02-15T05:25:00.000-08:00

i really think u shouldnt miss this ! awesome krumping . haha .

ling ling , u forgot ur bling bling

2010-02-14T21:10:00.000-08:00

brades . isnt it prettaaayy ? i'll post a picture of me with one of the hairstyles . i think its sooo prettay !! :D
HAHAH .

went to ou with cya and the family and ate at my news .com and watched pecry jackson and the lighting thief . it was awesome . one word for the main character boy ; CUTE :D awwww :D hehehe . okayy , enough of tht . thennn , reached home at 9 and that's it -.-

alaaaaaaaaaa, comelnyaa dia . hahahahahahhahahha

totally out of control

2010-02-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

at school , urine test . well , i wouldnt talk about it in public but it scared the hell out of me . its really dramatic what i've been through -__-"

DAHLIA'S POOL PARTY

sports day was on the same day but the party was on that night . pretty tiring for one day to handle all . cehh xD here's some pictures at school sports day .

there's wazif the stup classmate , at the back there is gorgie , and idk what's he's name and GUESS WHAT ? he's a malay ( pretty amazing cause the first sight when i saw him i thought he was an absolutely chinese) izri and C .

i hate this picture so much but i couldnt resists , takkan nk one picture je kaan ? cause the rest of the pictures on sports day , i look fugly . believe me , u dont wanna see the rest -.-

so , that petang .. dahlia's party . me and C decided to help them out (karina and dahlia) and we blowed the baloooon :D my hand was red as chilliiiiiies cause it C doesnt know how to tie it up . she had reasons and they were " the nails is too long , might pop out the baloons" . haishh -.- CARRY ON , the first thing when i reached there , at 7 i straight away dipp myself in the water cause i didnt bathe since the sports day . even though i sweat alot , ppl didnt came up to me and said that i'm pretty smelly . instead they said "shazza , kau ni wangilah :p " hahhahaa . here are some pictures .

my pants is wet cause i dipped into the pool . and the bikini is not dry YET . so , please get ur mind off from stupid imagination . eww -,-

that night , we went home at 10.30 and me and C cooked our amazing MAGGIE cause we were hungry . and we watched 21 MOVIE . it was awesome but eventually i slept before the movie end . C watched it till the end and she liked it . not just like it but ADORES it . glaaaad ;) here's some pictures of exhausted faces .

on sunday , went to plaza damas with parents and bought a couple of new dvd's . i havent follow up the gossip girls for so long and in the end , i bought season 2 and three . finally finished watching within 2 days . i havent get up the chair if i wasnt hungry . that happened before .

burning as hell

2010-02-04T21:55:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL
as far as i join the running for sports teams , i get gold medals . hahah , FUNNY -.- i know . hope that i'll stay till the end , for tmrrw . 100 and 4x100 . oh just now , i was shocked that the teacher told me i was in for 4x400 damn IT WAS FUCKING TIRED . i cnt stand -.- but i made the first cut ;P hahaaha .

i've been dancing to pitbull songs to sweat ALOT ! hahahaha. kind of fresh :p my voice seems to disappear bit by bit cause of supporting the "TARIK TALI " for 4 rounds -.- boys and girls . eeergh , i feel like dying plus the HOTNESS of the BURNING sun . i think i'd gone darker wehh -.- haishhhh .

oh , i went for sports for 3 days in a row and i wore the shirt that i didnt wash yet since yesterday . LUCKILY no one came and said "shazza , u're effing smelly ". hahaha . i didnt even tell anyone about this . :p i'll make sure i'll post a video of me dancing , SOON . COMING SOON :p

cnt wait for tomorrow

i'm so impatient in a good way for this saturday and D and C is sleeping over . hoping to get a fun night . sister (shameen) is really testing my patients :@ she'd never return my CLOTHES back whenever she took it out from home and bring it to her boyfriend's place . all in her pictures are 70% my clothes . name it , PANTS , SHOES , ACCESSORIES , BAG , TOP , SHORTS ? , TIGHTS , its all mine . i cnt stand with her at home . she's just someone you would STABB at the back of the head . damn , NICE . feel like spitting on her face . (meen , i know u'll read this , OH YESS BBY , bring it on at home when u come back -.- ) . stupfck .

my dad OWE ME MONEY AND SHOPPING ;D YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

move , shake , drop

2010-02-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

mary kate & ashley olsen

for the past few days , i did post about getting the "SO VICTORIA SECRET FLAT STOMACH " and i'm reaching it .SOON. saturday is the last test !. just get back from school , it was EFFING funny to watch SHAZMI dance like a freak in cheerleading steps for girls , and the way he shake his butt off like IN MERCURY'S . hahahaah , i cnt stop laughing . and oh GLORY GLORY FOR JUPITER . we won alot for RUNNING COMP today . i won first place too ;D for 200 . cant wait for this saturday . SPORTS DAY . not exciting as it used to be since our school started to make the DAMN freakin rules that the outsiders cant go in . and only to ppls who wears baju sukan skolah can go in . isnt it saddening ? :'(

the devil RISE ;
past few days , me and C took our ENEMY's pants that "he/she" left it on the table and we came the next day with THE PANTS but it doesnt quite .. reallly .. look the same as if before . it was CUTT OFF by me , and we put it in a plastic bag and add some EGGS and cracked it inside it . our plan was to put it on the table of ITS and let HE/SHE see what had happened to it . sadly , it didnt go according to the plan . damn cikgu saiful and ustaz basri . hate those two stups -.- ANNOYING WEHH . sheesh . something happened and we ran to the canteen to take another plastic bag cause the eggs skin made a few small holes to the plastic . as we were running the whole crowd stared , and we ran into the 2 MOST ANNOYING TEACHERS . we had to throw them away . it was a lifetime experience bby ! hahaha . should make another MISSION and ACHIEVE our HARDWORKS ! gonna make it happen ! wait for the next post ladies and gentlement ;)

i just cant stop laughing when i found this !

2010-01-30T16:17:00.000-08:00

In order to assure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from students, it will be our policy to keep all students well taught through ourprogram of SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TEACHING (S.H.I.T.).

Students who don't know S.H.I.T. will be placed in DEPARTMENTAL EDUCATIONAL EVALUATION PROGRAMS (D.E.E.P. S.H.I.T.). Those who fail to take D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T. seriously will have to go to EDUCATIONAL ATTITUDE TRAINING (E.A.T.S.H.I.T.). Since our lecturers took S.H.I.T. before they graduated, theydon't have to do S.H.I.T. anymore, as they are all full of S.H.I.T. already.

If you are full of S.H.I.T., you may be interested in a job teaching others.We can add your name to our BASIC UNDERSTANDING LECTURE LIST (B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T.).

For students who are intending to pursue a career in management andconsultancy, we will refer you to the department of MANAGERIAL OPERATIONAL RESEARCH EDUCATION (M.O.R.E. S.H.I.T.). This course emphasizes on how tomanage M.O.R.E. S.H.I.T. If you have further questions, please direct themto our HEAD OF TEACHING, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (H.O.T. S.H.I.T.).Thank you.

early day is not fun

damira ;) uploaded

2010-01-30T06:35:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMIRA

haha , even though its few days ago but who the hell cares ? still consider the birthday girl ! :D

today , went sunway for damira's birthday celebration . and perhaps this will be my 2nd last day of hanging out this year :'( i know its very sad . idk since when family did this rules wtv -.- i had tuition in the morning at dmnsara ( cousinsss house) then , rush over to sunway . came late , had shisha . and hmm , ate my IRELANDS POTATOES :D yummmmmy and fattening -.- once in a while je . dahlia and her stupid jokes of the day makes me go LOCCO . was so hyper because of her REMPIT ACT . that's why i love her ;) hahahahaha . me and putra went forever while damira and the rest went to miss sulfridge & topshop . we ran over lowkey at forever 21 , and he was choosing a dress for his girlfriend's valentines date . his mom was pretty cool & she deinately supports the dress that lowkey's trying to choose . cool mom . RICH ! hahaha. i bought a few bangles at diva london for the day :( saddening . no money ! :'( i didnt eat . save money ! ahhahaha . ate at my cousins house earlier that morning . tuition was a headache ! hate it . I WAS CONFUSED by the days . i thought today is sunday and i clled ppl are u going to school tmrrw . and they were like huuuuh ? today is saturday . haiyaaa . i need to eat more VITAMINS for brains ! hahaha .

nabil,yaya,putra,me,B'DAY GIRL,dahlia,karina

putra <33

yaya<3

rose<3

run baby run

2010-01-27T04:44:00.000-08:00

This year , i decided to lose some weight by joining the school's sports programs whatever it takes to lose the fats on my stomach . eventually , i do have fats on my stomach and thighs . i even bet with C that i could get that victoria secret's body on the 6th of February . its important because , Dahlia's birthday celeb is on that night . pool party at the other block of my house . GIRLS , will put on bikini and they'll see my flat stomach . imma gonna make that happen YALL ! hahaha . i skipped some exercises yesterday and so on , i have to force myself to do it double the exercise for a day . oh i almost forgot , SURPRISE SURPRISE i got number 1 for the 100m run . for form 3 ONLY . and i signed up for 100m,200m,&4x100 . haaa , alooooot of work to do . hope that'll work for the night ! -,-" i ate kuey-teow + nasi ayam merah at school +pancakes for the day . OH GOSH , i need to cutdown some meals here . start eating FRUITS ONLY :( wtv it is , i need that bodaaayy . MY GOALS ! ahhahaha . 2010 revolution - work hard to get that flat stomach of Victoria secret's .

i definately think u're an ugly whore

2010-01-25T02:34:00.000-08:00

this is what i found- " oh i tak dgar apa apa ponn, alaa chilllaa. i know who laa. si slutt tu kan? hahahha " by miss sonotper - fectRIHANNAmuch ?

hahah , guess who ? ;)

omg , i dont have time to explain here everything but the thing is , "HE" somehow said that he likes her and turns the story around . oh damn , *ouch on the butt . i am 100% sure that everything had changed since he had a FRIEND name - hahaha . my previous stupid SO RESPECTED womaaan .

today , went to school as usual . daymn today was boring . luckily no homeworks . i've been checking out youtube alot ! i mean , ALOT ! all about victoria secret fashion show . i cnt keep my eyes off their stomach . daymn they're hot . so , i was so obsessed with their stomach& its my dream to have like theirs !. i;ve been jogging alone these few days . damn tiring ! since i cnt swim because of the pool is renovating , instead , i had to go for JOG . that's the second choice . actually , there's still a third choice . GYM ! but , too lazy to go to the management cause i need the KEYS to the gym and TO BE ABLE to do that , i need to make a card. they need a pic of me , and blablablaa ... no time laa . lately , i also checked out YOGA for beginners . i dont find it funny but my mom does . everytime she comes back from work looking at me with the TRYING SO HARD TO RELAX "FACE" , she'll make sure she'll burst out laughing . i know its impossible for you to get that victoria secret body but NOT FOR ME WHEN I WANT IT SO BADLY . i'll sure do post a picture of me with that smokin STOMACH . :p hahahaha .

check out for more ;D later !

u aint that better

2010-01-24T05:43:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION : to the my special someone , beloved dearest FRIEND -.- puh-lease . u wanna talk about someone , mirror urself first . u aint that better than me . u had been the " red spot where the laser points " . if only i could blow u off , i would really love to . sadly , i'll end up in jail . haha .

so , i've been watching victoria secret's fashion shows . addicted to their bodies ! xD of course its every girls dream to have that bodayy ! hmm , i checked out YOGA FOR BEGINNERS and actually followed everything on the videos and pictures where i googled . need those pretty awesome MATCHES LEGS ! ahhaha .

school , tomorrw . gosh , i feel like killing myself now . OH NO I DONT WANNA GO -.- seriously , i need

new environment in school . I WANNA CHANGE SCHOOL SO BADLY ! -.- haishh . its all i want ! plus , that school sucks . seriously . SUCKS -.- hmm , wtv . on to the next - i cnt decide on which one to go on this tuesday . its either - skating practice / jupiter practice (its school olahraga thingy) / meet yusuf . i cnt decide on which one to go ? :/

look what u've done

2010-01-23T18:47:00.000-08:00

" YELLOOOWWWW "

" hahahaha ( press the beep hang up button ) "

" we dont talk to ppl that says YELLOW ? " - kardashians

haha . i have no idea what's wrong with me talking about kardashians all the time . so anyway ,SATURDAY went tuition at dmnsara . lisa and mryam was there . awesome . SADLY i was late . so the teacher had finished her explaination on science while me , i had to memorizeee all of it in a few minute and she questioned me aloooooooooot of stuffs . and as well as u know me , i cnt answer all . ahahahahah . some oni can laa .

that night went to BUBBA GUMP SHRIMP . i dont find the food delicious . somehow , it sucks . not all . but ALOT of 'em . did ya know that the shop actually has a true story behind it . its a very interesting movie . after the eating and complaining the food , U CNT BELIEVE WHAT MY EYES SAW . SALES EVERYWHERE . THE SADDEST PART ON EARTH IS THAT WE WENT TO SUNWAY AT 9 & FINISHES OUR DINNER AT 10 ? THE SHOPS ARE CLOSING . but luckily i get to one shop . miss sulfridge and bought a skirt and lacey top . nice ;D its 50% . other shops are like 70% 8O i know its shocking . i cnt believe it either . its not like i'd never seen anything sales up to that amount but its amazing when i didnt shop for a long time , so nw its my opportunity to go and shop ! ;)

HAHAH , i have my reasons behind everything when you think its wrong ;)

so , today hmm . nothing much happen . NOTHING HAPPEN YET . and idk wht to do . mom ask me to study . hell no . so wtv . :p

few days ago , me AND IRINA TOOK PICTURES LIKE -__- "

my work

irina's work

gotta check this out yo !

2010-01-20T00:39:00.001-08:00

oooooo baybayyy

2010-01-18T03:00:00.000-08:00

so , i've made up my mind to do this .since i'm getting lazyy-er each day , i decided to only post when i have some real pictures taken whenever i go . haha . its easier that way ;)

-.-" zzz

2010-01-18T02:58:00.000-08:00

i painted my room green . GO GREEN . and here's the result ! :

i didnt take the room BEFORE it was painted . it was WORSE . now my room looks more spacious and extra big ;D going ikea next week to buy a small sofa or maybe something soft to sit on . haha . i was covered with SPLATS OF PAINTS . like alot . and it still didnt come off yet -,-

i miss my honey so badly rite now . cehh cehh , yeah wtv , SKIP THAT .

hmm , i've been painting lately , because of the wall painting makes me wanna paint on papers more . arts time .

OHHH , me and cya made our class time table . very cool . but we only managed to fnish the background .

seeeeee , our hardwork ! revealed . very cool huuh ? ahaha . the yellow sucks -.-

isnt it saddening ? awww :'(

2010-01-18T02:55:00.000-08:00

haha , went burger king today . its very near my house . but ama had to pick me up . her real name is amalina -.- so , hmm . that's pretty much all ? heres are some pictures that we captured for tday ;D

izzado and fazrul . both are my shades -.-

at last , someone does wanna kiss his butt off

cya , me , izzado , ama

pop it lock it , drop it ;)

2010-01-13T02:37:00.000-08:00

15 years old gonnabe :p

hmm , soph bought her blackberry storm and i'm gonna get it for my birthday soon . well , i WANT IT NOW ! :'( like , i promise for my LIFE for it . cehh , not really ! talk is cheap . hahaha .

i'll beg my dad for it FROM NOW ON :p

i HAVE ALOT OF FOLIO'S TO DO and history sucks . the teacher is freakypsycoticdude -__-" ustaz azkar . what a weird name -.-

i watched the paranormal activity movie and i cant sleep . i slept with mom and dad yesterday , and i think for today also -__-" SERIOUSLY , this sucks . but awesome movie . fyi , i hate real ghost stories or movies . freaks me out even in the evening .

bloody mary . haha

2010-01-09T17:53:00.000-08:00

today i got up early , even though i slept late last night .

i was all so excited to make my own PANCAKES . i even checked on the internet for some recipes . so , as all the pancakes done , i was searching for the syrup and i couldnt find it . we just went to bangsar cold storage and bought a BIG MAPLE PANCAKE SYRUP and she said she (maid) didnt saw it last night when she wasputting all the groceries in place . so , i couldnt eat the pancakes ! :'((((((((((((((

i wonder if u guys still remember the drama movie called "chiquititas" ?! i used to watch that drama , and was the NUMBER 1 fan of it. guess what ? one of the girl in the drama is MICHAEL BUBLE'S ex girlfriend . AND ALSO the featuring artist in the "havent met you yet " song video . check it out yo !

i have to finish my folio , at least BM today . cause i gotta start for sivic tmrrw . at least ? or tuesday ? this is tiring :'((

ready to roll ur eyes

2010-01-09T03:32:00.000-08:00

*wonders since when adidas has that nice design ? :O its always simple and ugly . nike's better .

school for the first week was baaaad . i came late 3 days in a row(since i didnt go for a day ) . not just late , VERY late . hmmpph , first day of school, me and cya cnt find our class and so , we went all around the entire school to look . in the end , found it with mr epul's help . as we enter , she already made her first impression , "WHERE WERE YOU ? D; " -__-" . after recess , both of us were late again and this time we thought its gonna be a different teacher since we already had our time table but the unexpected always happen . it was HER AGAIN -__-" suzila the sizzling madness PMS :/ so not fun at all . and she was like , both of u AGAIN ? and we had to stand for few minutes .

for the week , i already had plenty of homeworks to do including FOLIO'S . for BM and SIVICS . i used to have that "SO EXCITED" on doing folio's but not by doing it HANDWRITING . now , its HANDWRITING and it sucks as hell . luckily i found a website for form 3's novel folio . i dont need to read the whole BORING book . all i need is some coloured papperss and copy from A-Z . hehehe .

went to bangsar just now , and had a haircut . some touchup . repairs for the damge hairs . cut my fringe ; half an inch short . not much :p

next week , i'm gonna paint ma room . i cnt decide within these colours !

LIGHT blue
LIME green
LIGHT purple
white
orange

tht's all or now .

lazy maze of daisy

2010-01-05T03:20:00.000-08:00

that doesnt make any sense .

hmm , all jkarta pictures are on fcbk . to upload it here is gonna take a bloody long time. too many pictures .

didnt go to school today , cause i realise i cnt sleep last night and keep on vommiting each hour ! till i barely sleep . body aches so i cnt sleep . cried alot cause i cnt stand to vommit anymore. nothing comes out anymore except water from the body . eergh , i hte this . my body was pretty HOT like boiling water . hardly breathe . okay wtv .

tmrrw , i'll be going to school already . MAYBE . hope so . scared of what's gonna happen tnight. hope i could sleep well .

if i'm okay tmrrw , maybe i'll be going to meeeeeeeet yusuf after school ! yeay ;) miss him alot .

gotta go eat ! :D tattaaaaa

2010 ; long post

2010-01-01T18:53:00.000-08:00

guess what ? soprised suprised . she's 14 . she was the chosen to be the teen vogue megazine but when the president of teen vogue heard that she was 14 . she canceled it . she refused to because of the age she's got rejected . -___-" why oh why . pretty face !

this girl is fifteen . which i'm gonna be next year ! she's famous in megazines cause of the poses . unique poses .

she's fifteen ! :O and in runway . amazing isnt she . its the same girl as the upper picture . :O

as yall know i went jakarta for a week and i touch down two days ago which is on thursday night . it was exactly 12! fireworks ? naaaah . not at the airport . few minutes later went sjmc cause dad (food poisioning -__-" ) . he had to stay there . poor him . the rest of us went back home and unpack our things . sister still wanna hang out at that time so she went out and WORE MY CLOTHES . stupidfasshole -,-

HAHA

first day ,

reached at jakrta airport and uncle and the wife + the new memeber of the family ! sheika :D baby girl . her name is unique :? sheika shefaria . nice okayyy . wtv . and we he brought us to a shoppping mall nearby "SMS" that's what the mall is called . it was aroun 8.30 ? so we walked around till the mall closed and the outside is kinda cool . indonesian teenagers lepak there . its like the curve (outside version) where's lots of stalls at the side and ppls sitting and shisha in the middle . uncle said very happening and famous place among the teenagers for lepak ahaha . then went home . i mean their house .

amy winehouse . nooooo its just a picture .

the rest of the days ,

went to lots of malls ! :D and some factory outlets . it was oky laa to shop there . not so cheap but affordable for our family .i did my manicure padicure , cream bath for my hair *(its like hair mask) , massage (its called mandi luluh) . haha . ticklish -.- i cnt stop laughing . then went home . saaaaaaad :'(

i love this !the hair :D

yesterday ,

went to daddy's hospital . i woke up at 2 pm i think ? went there by cab at 3 . met mom&dad . at 6 went subnag parade and bought a pair of long sleeve at dorothy . then , bought some stuffs for school ... home . fought with maid . ahahahahahha . she slept at ppls house that nighht . padan muke :p oh mom slept at the hospital with daddy and sister's out as usual . she came back around 4 am ?

today , hm might be going to masalam after this . i mean evening later . print out pictures when i went to the zoo . and some other pictures ;D okay .

2010 resolutions 

not to have any resolutions . just go with the flow

stufffy

2009-12-24T23:29:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS EVE !

sadly i had to stay home . putra told me ; yesterday yaya and himself went sunway at night and it was DAMN crowded + the new cool club (opera) thingy just opened . i think the opera club is cool ! ;D

i miss the snow ! i travel alot in december . every year actually . but except this year -_-" dad's really busy with his business and in the end HE ACTUALLY DONE with everything . so mom came up with a last minute plan -jakarta . i blogged alot about jakarta ! hahaha . excited . its TOMORRW ! yeay :D

went skating in the morning at 9 . dad was LATE ! as usual i had to run , RUSH HOUR haha ! and i cant concentrate with everything i was doing -,- ! sheesh , wasted . if i could find a skate shop there at indon i'll sure buy SOME/LOTSSSS STUFFS THERE ;D

bought a few bangles and a ring at "diva london" with putra . he picked out the ring . nice one ;) he's just being nice for a lil while cause i;m about to go jakarta ! hahaha . he wants the military jacket and the acid washed ripped off jeans .

that's what you get ;)

2009-12-24T01:32:00.000-08:00

WHITNEY PORT

i adore her designs . she really have the best sense of style . olivia palermo ;) also good in fashion clothing .

OLIVIA PALERMO

_______________________________________________________________________________

so here are some pictures of whitney ports fashion designs

i've planned SOME of the things i wanna buy at jakarta :D maybe one more blazer , few skirts , high waist skirts , dresses , handbags , accesorise , the beach stuffs there are dammmn cheap so i like to grab some roxy stuffs . shoes ! :D maybe flats , slippers -_-" normal stuffs .

i just talked to mom what i want for my birthday present ! my own loise vuitton bag . tired of watching HERSELF keeps on buying new loise vuitton bags and i;m not allowed to actually borrow or even dare to touch it out of her sight -__-" reptty jealous here . so , planning to have one of my own . i already chose it showed her and i hope mom and dad will think smart about it . or not i'll choose the mac comp . hehehe . :p

its marc by marc jacobs watch !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm in love with it :O wooaaa . hahahahahahahahahahaha -.- mom will just faint when i show her this :p

so , yesterdaaaaay . went sunway with putra , nabila , sofia , athira i think ? , anwar and another dude . ahahahah . sorry folks i'm not good at remembering names. i came late cause .. complicated . then , when i reached there , went to rainforest . there they are. had shisha ;) then walked for awhile with putra . then , went to the bowling area . ate nasi goreng . putra's favourite place . ate there . NIIIICE ;) should try ! then headed to the gasoline . its a place to eat -__-" sounds diff . haha . cool place. sat inside , and its like very dark . so if u wear white , in there will look like its LIGHT BLUE :D kind of glowing in the dark thingy . did some stupif stufffss -__-" . then they boked tcket zombie at 8 . but i didnt watch it . so , when it reached 8 o'clock. i went and bought myself some elianto's nail polish , and bloop . :D silver , balck and babaaay blue . haha . the end .

will upload some pictures with them all soon . as long as putra uploads it !

-_______________-"

now its over

2009-12-21T23:45:00.000-08:00

evryone's blurr when it comes to my boyfriend . we are now TOGETHER . cehh :p hmm , well its the fact . loving back at each other . okay FULLSTOP

friendship , wtv . some , i just dont give a damn anymore cause i cant accept the childish atitude anymore . i just cant stand it . so , yeah let it all out to you ppl who knows it now ! GROW UP . please notice urself -.-

today , was uspposed to go to sunway but i think i wanna be at home . just clear my mind and watch 24 . life's pretty much sucks but what to do ? i'll just have to go with the flow . i wanna go have mani and padi if i'm not going anywhere this wed . if i have the chance to meet yusuf this wed . yeah i will ! ;) missing him alot . he's about to go to penang on a starcruise . this thursday . :'(

prom night . this wednesday ! but sadly . not going . cause mom wont let . till i'm already 17 ! :D friday go OU or maybe curve .

excuses uneacceptable

2009-12-21T01:56:00.000-08:00

i'll cll u guys and say sorry later ! to aud , ash , sandra , rachel , nazurah .

currently this cheers me up a little :)

dont bother , do bother ?

2009-12-19T11:02:00.000-08:00

its dakota fanning . shooting for teen vogue megazine .

i have to admit that she's pretty ! look at how gorgeous she is ! -.- for god sake , the skin and all . perfect ! haha . so anywayyy , i'm searching for that leapord dress and the shoes . looks comfy to me ;)

so , i'm still awake at 2.52 am . besides , the movie "24" is VERY EXCITING iat the moment. but something just gets my way when the disc seems to stuck ! -.- so , i ended up taking a break . relax my body from laying down side ways , it just hurts so badly to stay in that freakin position and didnt even move any body parts except ur hand to control the mouse for several hours ? -_____-"

i'm HUNGRYYYY :O just now , went to klcc . with meen , mom and dad . bought a top at zara , and grey gladiator from nose . meen bought a pair of shoe at MNG and its more expensive than my shoe . so in the end , i beg them for a pair of shades . parents said , we're going to jakarta next week . buy everything there . so , i have to make a list since its cheaper there :D ! woohoo . i havent decide yet what to buy ? didnt check the megazine . but all i know is its studed month ! or maybe its already past ? idc :p

oh gooosh i'm bored . oh i wore this pearl dark pink nail polish and its cute . it suits my dark skin ! -.- i mean , tent :p hhehheh . okay , wtv , i;m freakin excited to go out with my HONEYBOOMBOOMSSS this wed . HAHAHA , and they are . ashley , audrey , nazurah , sandra and maybe rachel . yeah man . we never went out all together ! that day's kind of speacial cause its nazurah's birthday ! so , she decided curve . awesome place nazurah! but i still dont know what to ger for her . she's kind of PICKY -.- sorry nazrh if u're reading this ! :p

hahaahh , i gtg continue watching the 24 and fix some problematics. cehh , wtv . okayy CHALUBETEHH ahhaha

that's all i need to know

2009-12-18T20:07:00.000-08:00

relaxing is all i need for the day

yesterday , the whole family went to the zoo since my lil brotha never seen any real animals -.- all he saw in his whole life is just some monkeys cause they always come down the hill to our house when they're hungry -.- and insects. poor lil brotha , so that's why we all have to go -.- my aid followed and u know , as usual BIBIK FROM INDONESIA will be so kecoh ! hahaha . i mean when we actaully entered there at the zoo negara , she was like "TENGOK TU GIRAFFE BETUL, TGK TU ELEPHANT BETUL BUKAN MAINAN" -_________________-" i think the whole zoo can hear her voice . so embarrassing and my mom actually said to her , ehh mmg aa haiwan sume dlm ni betul . takkan la mainan . ya allaah ya rabbi . HAHAHAH , damn funny . and this one time we walked like half way to the end . and me , mom , lil bro and my maid was thirsty but we dont really have anything to drink or foods to eat. so , my maid cant wait to go to the shops down there , its quite far but she just cant wait to go there even though we'll pass through to that place soon . so , while me , mom and lil brotha was looking at the bears and penguins she walked down the hill and she came up 15 minutes later . with ONE MINERAL WATER AND ONE MAGGI FOR HER . my mom was like , :O what about us ? u buy for urself oni laa ? then i took the mineral and drink and my mouth was like FULL of water and my mom said okay lets go to the shop . and she ran down the hill. there's me and my maid only and i was facing her , I BURST OUT THE WATER to my maid when she said ,ALAAA MEMENATKAN AKU JE ? -____-" "with the face" ! HAHAHHA . so , she was soakin wet ! hahaaahahhahahahhahahhhahahahha

eat nasi padag after that at kj . i didnt eat , cause i feel like eating calamari !

we went to "hero " its a supermarket near the house and bought the sauce, squids , the flour ! to make the calamari at home ! hhaha , it turns out "BLUEK" ! disgusting and i feel like chocking myself till i vomit ! ahhahahahahaahha . i'll never try to make that calamri myself , i dont care to come out with alot of money just to buy th ecalamri at sushi king ! :D

wake up sleepy head

2009-12-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

i promise i'm gonna have that kind of hair someday ! ;D

"pity her , of course ppl wouldnt call her a bitch cause she aint got that pretty face ,hunny !"

i think it means alot to me about the quote up there .

so , i didnt do anything much today . i was free but its just that i get the feeling of just hangin out around my house area . condo . PAAN :D "farhan" my brotha from another fathaa , he came back a week ago . which is after spm . oh forgot to mention , he came back from KEDAH . he's a good person , caring i guess :p ANYWAY , i didnt know that cause i've been hangin out somewhere else and busy with the skating schedule -.- so , i had to skip hnagin out with the neighbour hood for quite awhile . i was suprised when i saw him , like YO !!!!! imissu -.- HAHAH . okay skip that ...

today , i was just checking out ppls blog , mys , fcbk updates and ........ all of a sudden another "paan" called me . "YO shazza !, teha and maisha's here". so , i took my bath and hang out with em all , had fun talking to teha. gossip much :p haha . that's what ppls do . while the others , paan , maisha , and another dude with the lil brotha -.- play the racing game with my phone and theirs -____-" it was all noisy and kabut ! hahaha .

so now , i curled my hair with the curling iron for fun , and now its already staright back to the normal hair again -.- its not the real iron curler its the "for fun" thaaaang . oh yeah , we played lastic . the WE is for me and my little brother 4 years old . it was really funny -.- he was BEING CUTE+ACTIVE+manja+annoying with the GUN SHOT SOUND whenever he lastics me -.- we stopped playing tht stup game cause i wanted to put on my nail polish. i did it to his nails too :D its peach . he loves it . he even asks more for tomorrow . hehe ;D

now , i'm just blogging and i found somethng at the "so called up" girl and she's still crapping . i dont give a shit anymore . wasting my energy on fighting over something small . even though the girl i was actually talking about in the bulletin doesnt really care tht much -.- but she , "bak kate ****** die gelabah lebih, poyo je" HAHA. okay tht's it . i'm waiting for my driver to come and fecth me to go sunway . i gave skating at 10 pm till midnight . LAZYY :'(

a few vain pictures that would fill up my day better .

u're just another stupid girl living in vain -.-

2009-12-15T06:55:00.000-08:00

 HAHA 

well , embarrass me ? pfft , i can embarrass you too or more . count me in laa . wehh , the way u say respect ppl is like i dont know what's respect ? pfffffft , you didnt even respect me . i was freakin mad in the bulletin and ya know it . the post was just realeased and u directly comment IT ! . of course its public and i knew that . but the thing is , i was talking about someone else and it wasnt you . YOU CLEARLY KNOW IT . then why bother ? if u wanna put a joke , well its not the rite time la babe . wrong timing . hello , who wouldnt pissed off when u're mad at someone else , and another person came in with the innocent feeling but OLDER put everything u said in the bulletin back to u . as u can see , she is more pathetic , and making an excuse that it was just a joke ? OVER MY DEAD BODY -___-" u suck . seriously , the funniest part was she stalked my friends comments . my friend asked me , oh wht's wrong ..... and i told her , this freak women .... and the FREAK WOMEN actually stalked her and asked her to pass a comment to me . well, about tht . it had all GONE and everything was just FINE . suddenly she APPEAR on my phone that says , "someone told me that u told them u went sunway and scolded me because of a guy ? HAHA very funny" . rumors rumors , i wonder who u are . well , she wont tell me and idc . u're just another stupid girl living in vain -.- no time nk layan prempuan bodoh tade experience apebenda . noob sial . ahahaha . seriously , ur own friends dont really like ya , u're so blind . HAHAHAHA

extremely funny videos

2009-12-14T05:33:00.000-08:00

the person who made the video wont give the code . so , i just give the link . seriously , u'll burst put laughing to this apek !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-OUyD_Hu4mk

bm translation

tiring

2009-12-11T22:28:00.000-08:00

its the milky way where i wanna be living in peace rite now ! -___-" miserable

hanis , me and damira ;_ <333

she's ma bitch baybaaaayyy

hahahh

oh god , i'm so tired today . on thursday , went sunway pyramid with yaya , hanis , mrisha , rose , damira , putra , nabila , elly and i cant remember . haha . so , went shisha and oh met harith and qadri otw to rainforest . met everyone there , shisha shisha shisha . farahiyah and the other schoolmates were there too beside our table . then , went to bowling alley cause putra wats to eat the fried rice there . 4 star for the fried rice yo ! haha . sent elly , nabila , putra and yaya to topshop to meet up with shaef and they all went and get ready for their blaze party -__-" the rest of us , went kaaa-reee-ooo-kkeee like hell somewhere at the basement . damn funneyyh , well we had a lil fight there betweeen damira and mrisha but it turns out well in the end . had loaddds of fun . no worries . went back at 8 something ? yeaaah . done .

friday , went to defination . dance with faza like crazyy and met other pretty ppl . thira daza was fun yeaah ;D kind and pretty . at first there's no one at the dancefloor and in the end , everyone everyone nail it ! jyeaah , one problem .. everyone was dancing and enjoying the moment ; BLACKOUT . hhaha , so half of the ppl went home. no mood edi . after that , i didnt really dance , just sit around and talked to dad -____-" went back home at 12++ .

today , hmpphh someone's being a bitch rite nw -___-" pffffft , totally mad at someone and another person thinks tht i'm talking to her . like bapak perasan wehh ? T.T mampos aa .

THE AWESOME'SSSS

2009-12-11T00:05:00.000-08:00

THE AWESOME LEGS

THE AWESOME BODY

THE AWESOME HAIR THAT I'VE ALWAYS DREAM

THE AWESOME LEATHER JACKET

THE AWESOME BODY

THE AWESOME LEGS

THE AWESOME HAIR , SWIMSUIT , BODY , FEATHER , PICTURE.

THE AWESOME HAIR, LEGS , BODY , PERFECT FACE .

THE PERFECT LIFESTYLE , AWESOME HAIR , BODY , STYLE , PRETTY FACE .

THE PERFECT LOVE .

i already have the perfect love but not the rest . this is my lists and i have to have all this when i'm 16 . HAHA , my wish list .

"oh shooting star , when are u coming ?? make my wish come true ." - totally jealous D;

those good days

2009-12-09T03:30:00.000-08:00

wht laa ? HAHA

my day was .. as usual . well , not really . okay , wtv -.-

i slept at 4 am , cause i watched the 21 blackjack movie , i'm so obsessed ! i watched 2 times at that night and so i'll keep on watching . NEVER GET BORED ! as expected , sandra called me tht night and said if she and ashley could come by and swim at 8 ? first , she really put me in a shock , SO EARLY ? think again , they dont really come here that often . so , yeah why not ? once in awhile .

as i was dreaming , mom knocked on my window from the outside before she went to work . i ignored her untill she started screaming "SHAZZA SANDRA AND ASH IS HERE !!!" i was suprised and yelled back at her . "GOOOOOOOT IT !" . i hardly talk to her that kind . usually i ignore her and she knew that all the time. i realized that my life's easier this way . hehe ^OO^ . i forced myself to get up and it was 8.30 a.m . my feet touches the ground and there are my TWO FAV BUDDIES WHO WOKE ME UP EARLYY IN THE MORNING at my door . so lovely of them -.-

according to the plans , we were supposed to be in the swimming pool by that time . so , we quickly changed into swimsuits . i'm still practising on my diving with sandra since she used to join swimming clubs . jyeaah ;D its getting better and better . we went out about 11 ? and made cupcakes while watching THE 21 BLACKJACK :D since ash didnt watch that yet . so yeaaaaaa . sadly , they went back at 12.30 . the movie was halfwayy -.- haish . but i finished watchng it alone . haha.

the plan for the day is to go to ou with someone , but they didnt call me since i dont have their number . i didnt go laa . i didnt know wht to do and i forced my butt to stuck on the computer chair and sits there all day till i called my dad to gimmie some money to print out the pictures in the old camera . i called maio to come to my house and bring my shoes that i left at her house sicne last year . so she did , and we went to section 9 . we were lost inside the plaza masalam . we didnt really know where the photoshop is ? but in the end we found it!

(dont bother to look at our stomach . HAHA)

while searching with our blinded eyes , she actually saw her cousins , some friends , and some ppl that we knew . didnt expect this to happen ? haha . i have to take the pictures tomorrow at 2pm . SHIT ! now i remember that i have skating tmrrw . gosh . OH NO i'm not going for skating . :O cya's birthday ! yeaaah man .

went back home and lepak tangki . went home . i'm lazy to type . ciao . sorry no mood since luqman is on ebuddy . haha

21 blackjack

2009-12-08T11:37:00.000-08:00

oh well , my baby . i keep on watching the same movie again and again cause i'm obses with this baby . baby FACE ! awwwwww , fuck it . i love him :D

changes

2009-12-08T11:20:00.000-08:00

lets see. hmpphh , i'm looking at the casual side of fashion . i think i like this outfit . simple and this used to be me .

nway , i took this picture cause i have this feeling inside of me that made me think back on what i've done . i feel like i wanna be thrown away RITE NOW by god to another world where there's new ppl , new things , new life . i'm happy with yusuf but ppls around me just keep making me feel uncomfortable , mad , grumpy , crazier than ever . the moods that plays around , IT SUCKS .

mood / : FUCKING NOT OKAY -.-

work it out

2009-12-07T00:09:00.000-08:00

some of my friends already started working . i might be working . not this year . maybe after pmr . which is next year . dammit , thinking about next year , PMR SUCKS . i wanna be in form 5 , like rite now . dammi t, FREEDOM after spm . shit maaan . STOP CURSING SHAZZA . this few days , i'd kee on cursing on everything , it started with SAM ! he's a friend of mine from ice hockey . oh and brandon , just joined . woohooo . old friend ! haha .

lemme tell u bout 2 days ago .. since soph went to london and everyone starts to bully me . dayyyymn , like hell i mean . brandon smacked my ass for bout 2 times . first hit it was with the towel . HAHA , it was burning i tell u ! haha . the second hit , it was because of sam . SALALALALAAAA fuck u -.- he tried to do something to me that i forgotten what was it and i cant handle both . while i was trying to threaten sam , brandon SMACK MY BUTT with his hand . WOOOWWW , in front of everyone in the skating rink . the rink was resurfacing so , everyone sat at the outside of the rink . everyone saw what happened . after all the things happened , i still cant handle both , i dont dare myself to kick their asses ! ahahhaa , without soph . naaah , yes i'm a scaredy cat T.T hmmpphh . that;'s pretty much all . so now , i'm going bk mall at shah alam . meeting ppl there . ciao -.-

here are some videos i collected .

2009-12-02T22:08:00.001-08:00

he's hot, and 14 ! zzzzz

she's cute

she sings in english

no money

2009-11-29T03:35:00.000-08:00

sooo , i'm gonna sell my evening short dress . its very nice . but i guess , i dont wear it . idkwhy . so , i'm gonna give it to putra and he's gonna put it at his blogshop . :D yeaaay . haha . i need money . plus , i confirmed with putra to buy his gray stone ring ! :D its 35 -.- not cheap . for a ring ! gosh . the fashion stuffs is getting expensive. absolutely expensive . non of it nowdays is cheap . not like the old days ! i'm not going anywhere overseas or a vacation in malaysia -.- dad said if ur friends are going , i'll send you . so i'm searching for a friend who's going jakarta or somewhere in indonesia , it would be cool there . cause the shopping stuffs are all cheap and its niiiiiiice like here . maybe more there .s o , i'm looking forward there . inform me if u ppl are going somewhere . i wnna follow :D haha . nwaaayyy , went to potluck wtv shit just now and cya left her phone with me . good , GREAT actually . but she said wait till tuesday , we're out to watch new moon . :D putra , me , myb damira , yaya . maybe lutfi . yeaah tht's pretty much all . if anyone wanna join , u're welcome :D hehehe . that's all for now ;D

insane embarrassssssment !

2009-11-26T18:45:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY , went to sunway in the morning . around 8.30 ? skate . and went out at 12 something . went home and pack stuffs with soph . went sunway back (1+pm)again but this time to lagoon . meet up with shameen , rode a few rides together then we separated . we rode everything that we can .

there's a stalker! indian ! eeeergh . this one time , just finish the ride and went down to the wet park . then at the end of the slide there's this indian dudeee , he said "can i know you girl ? " i showed my foot at him , "u seee this ? NO !" me and soph went to the beach site . swim swim swimm , and the life guards stareeeed at us . they wnted to take pictures for display and bla bla bla . we refuse to ! deny . but he was degil he took candid pictures .. asshole . then , as we were swimming and swimming , the indian diude was near us . on a white float . eeeeeerh , we ran to some bikes side and look check out some stuffs . and i looked back he was there . "pretending to look at the price too" we ran away and go to other ridesssssss ... then he's gone . the life guards there sucks . ^OO^ . haha . we went out around 5 something i guess ? then went inside sunway . i thought my driver would be there early , so we straight away go home . but he cant make it . he reached there at 8 something . FOR GOD SAKE i was wearing this HUGE slipper and dress up like i'm going to pasar malam wehh ! pasar pagi pon boleh laah . the end .

EMBARRRASSSINGGG. lots of spellling mistakes but wtv , i gtg . ciao

u're so gay

2009-11-25T00:17:00.001-08:00

when she says GO ON BITCH

2009-11-24T23:39:00.000-08:00

dj yoji biomehanika

one of the best dj of all time from TOKYO ;)

okayy , went swimming with sandra at 12 something . imagine how hot it is ? and i know i cant wait for evening to come cause its gonna rain . rain season -.- sucks . so , i swam under the hot sun :O and as i were sun bathing . my skin was burning like mad . and in the end we went under the shades and go home . well , sandra taught me how to dive . thats something new i learned . it was awesome . i did tried and tried and tried . not to give up . in the end , i dive pretty well :D she said i was a fast learner . HAHA , WOW . i felt like i was so lembap to get everything rite ! -.- so we swim and swim and swim 200 meters je :p it was tiring . the end . i wanna sleep . ciao

he hit me

2009-11-22T19:21:00.000-08:00

so , someone hit me . somebody lah . my right eye cant be open that much . it hurts . the sides of my head is full of bruises . there's bruises everywhere . i'm not going out for a few days . my head is spinning all the time and i'm tired . tired of fighting . this is real , aint kidding . I HATE EVERY HUMAN BEINGS . i'll be offline , no contacting ppl for a few days . maybe months from heart , face , feelings recovery . i should die by now and rest in peace so no one can hurt me anymore ! GAAAAAAAAAAAH , so stress out ! okayy that's all !

CIAO MOTHERFUCKERS . watch this !

all the way happy

2009-11-21T06:33:00.003-08:00

today , went sunway . with daddy , sister & her boyf and my dad's friend . we reached there and staright away go to the toilet . as i reached there , saw someone familiar WITH THE WEIRD HAIR . it was lutfi . hahaha , texted him and said "my dad's in the same toilet as you". lol . sooo , dad leave me and sister some money to shop around while he's at a spa with his friend . i bought shorts , blue blazers , and long sleeeeve KEMEJA . before that , went inside top shop and saw izra and nina . hahaha . had our dinner at tony romas . as usual , we always order the same thing at the same place . the best of all - ribs . ordered 5 full wreck . means there's 15 ribs ! hahaah . at last , WE FINISHED IT ALL . CLEAN 8O after that , we did our business in the toilet for few minutes . ahhahha , quite long actually . then , staright home . damn it was tiring . OHH I BOUGHT NEW CUTEXS . i'm wearing blossom roses.

he's awesome

2009-11-19T04:15:00.000-08:00

all the single gays ! hahaha :D I LOVE YOU :D

it seems fun collecting pictures

2009-11-18T06:46:00.000-08:00

the title speaks all of em'

that's all for now . haha . ciaoo

what happened ?

2009-11-18T02:10:00.000-08:00

haircut sucks -.-

there's alot of things to type . but i'll try my best to remember what was my activities back then .

yesterday

i went sunway . watch the phobia 2 . what a stupid movie . i watched alone :p as i was watching , suddenly i saw addy sitting beside me . thenn , went skating with soph and michelle . met sam there. an ice hockey player -.- he retardedly awesome , creepy and pervert :O haha . i saw mrisha there . and today i online and zhrh comment me and said she screammmed my name when she saw me at the ice skating rink . but i didnt heard her . she was with anis , mrisha and few other ppls . lol.

saturdayy

fly fm :D with the bj's ppls . went back early . so saad :( and went and eat at kfc with ebab and reached home around 5 am . watched the forgetting sarah marhsall again ! -.- stupid movie. my mom bought the cd and has "UNCENSORED" at the back . HAHA .

last friday , 

meet up with yusuf and nothing much happened . hehehehh * with the evil laughh . MUAHAHAHA

a day before friday , which was on thursday

went out with putra and met alisya , jaazlan i guess ? , lutfi , and manymore there . meet them halfway and i went walking alone . so saad , but bought a new swimsuit at RIP CURL ! :D hehehe. loving it . i'll upload the picture later. its with audrey ! -.-

HALLOWEEEN

i get alooot of candies on this day ! from my aunts and uncles and friends :D thanks ppls ! this picture was taken somewhere in ampang . at a mall . i cant recall what mall was it .

sister , after eating with aunts and uncles and mom and dad at a japannneeesssee restaurant. mom likes it cause she said its less fats ! haha

picture last day of school for me on tuesday . not the week of spm starts . it a week before that . yeahh , wtv -.- i wasnt a fan of taking pictures . not many pictures taken . this is fawwaz rasydan .

i'm too lazy to type all . today , i;m still having this sick fever and soar throat . caught the cold+fever+ alll from my borther since yesterday . now , i'm trying to watch the snogging movie . i forgot what movie ? and jennifer's body . chalubeteee :D haha

2009-11-06T20:53:00.000-08:00

left to the right > izzado , me , cya , jawaa, rushdan and ats skali fzrl.

sorry for not posting any new updates . its been a hectic week with all the exams and stuffs gong on . exams as usual sucks . missing few ppls out there. cant seem to hangout that often like we used to . last exam on next monday . YEAYYY , WOOOOHOOOOO :DD then , i;m free all the way . hehehe .

i dont really have much things to tell . literally , hahaha . hurmmm. filled up my days with sadness , and emotional . sorry for not replying u ppls messages and for not picking up all ur calls. i'd turned off my phone for about a week and goes on with loooooosing my charger. ass .

riding with joe

2009-10-24T10:12:00.000-07:00

look at the silky-nesssssss :O i want it so badly :( 

FEW DAYS AGO . . .
i rode joe's bike . from awesome , turns out to be a disaster and spent most of the day at the hospital and in pain . get what i mean ?

IN THE MEAN TIME . . .
crapp -.- having a hard time over something . trying to get my head off this stuffs. shit -.- lifeless .

TOMORROW . . .
daddy is coming back from china with my iphone 3G . idk yet if he actually bought the rite one . my dad is too smart . HAHA :D but if he did bought the rite one , OMG :O love him to death . hahahahaha .

TODAY . . .
had a haircut today , a bit shorter . 1 BIT , but stillllll -.- around the shoulder length . i wont cut it till it grows long to my old hair back again . missssssssing old hair :'(

NOW . . .
i freaked out just now while otp. was thinking about ghosts somehow . sheeeeesh , i cant sleep cause slept for 2 hours from 8 pm till 10 pm . heee :D so , might not be able to sleep later on . wanna watch hannah montana the movie ! HAHAHAHHH . or maybe other movies .

SOON . . .
I'm LOOKING FORWARD TO JENIFFER'S BODY !!! i wanna watch , but waiting for the rite timing and waiting or 2012 to come out ! COME OUT COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARE ! -.- that movie is sorta scaryy , watched the trailer . looks like the world is ending sooooon . cool aite ? hahaha .

no balls at home

2009-10-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

niiiiice shot -.- haha

bald head is awayy . its my dad what i mean !! hahahah , he's away for a few days , so i'm free the whole 4 days . PARTY EVERYDAY P-P-P-PARTY EVERYNIGHT . woohoo , well idont really care what my mom will say or wtv -.- freeeedooom . i dont blog that much nowadays . its like , i'm so lazy to type . everytime i online means i'm checking for some new songs , mysace updates , reply comments , e-buddy , and watch the hills and the city . then i'm done . i'm not an internet FREAK. hahaha . school exam is coming . i MEAN SERIOUSLY !!! my exam is on november . while everyone is out and partying i'll be at home studying for the whole week ! damnfreakinshit ! haisssshhh -___-" i hate school . this week , i had the worse week ever . HECTIC MUCH . ppl said like oh eevryday school is my worse day ever . what i mean by my worse day is WORSEEEEEEE !!! *with the ugly face -.- . wednesday , morning time . first period , there was ths freak teacher , known as scanner . she's out art teacher . she'd been taking art psycic or wtv shit they call it that when you draw , there's a meaning in every lines . its like , at times she said oh u made a big mistake in life wtv crappppps -.- and in class , i wasnt in a good mood . neevr since last week , and she made me draw . she hold my hands , and move it and draw ! uuuuurgh , so stressful . then i was about to go out of the class , i heard at the other end there's USTAZAH pointing , and screaming GO IN ! dont you dare go out & bla bla blaaa . so , i had to go in . and she was asking me stupid questions and i didnt get the answer , so i get a punishment for it . I HAD TO SWEEP FLOOR ! fuck you ! -.- then , at the last period of 3 masaaaaa . teh whole time , me and three fo my friends just sat in class while others went to "kemahiran hidup at the bengkel , sewing" . i was laying down on a table , and hang my head up side down , and my legs up the wall , and singing . other friend is sleeping . the other one was under the table , "afraid if the descipline teacher comes , so she's nowhere to be found " , and another one is feeling hot so , she walked around . from 12.25 till 1.50 we stayed in that position . worse day ever . so now , i gtg . up up and awaaaayy , chow bby choww-i love crapping around . -.- that's so lame

small dickhead ! HAHHA

2009-10-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

another pair of gorgio armani's shoe doesnt hurt , rite mom ? :(

last friday i went to jauhar's house and few peeps were there and fazrul too .he's just a dude in my school . i slapped him because of something . something that he said VERRRRRRRY PROUDLY kaan ? :D well , it was a like "WOAAAAWW" kinda slapp . so loud and he cant really hear clearly for awhile , but after that his right side chick and the ear turned red hot chillii pepper RED . haha , and he wasnt satisfied with it . from that day till today . he actualy slapped me , but slowly . i can even avoid him while walking . i mean , ppl can just make me mad easily or make me chase them like mad till i get him/her and kill . everyone knows that , especially classmates :D haha , he also knew that since he knew me . somehow , he was just testing me . WELL , THAT'S WHAT YOU GET ;DD so , his revenge doesnt really work afterall . so sadd :p

i was rich today , so i paid for sophie's food :O hahaha , for the first time . no laah , 2nd i guess ? so yeaaah . and she didnt even tell me that she'd been with ********* since 4months ago , SHIT YOU . and i just get to know it nowwww . wtheck ? that's sooo not coool. haha .

scars

2009-10-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

i think this is cooool :D  

i really wanna say about "something" but i dont know .

soooo , i read about someone's blog and suddenly the word scar catches my eyes . IDK WHY ? i'm weird . well , there's nothing wrong being weird :p that word came up from "the orphans" . i watched that on sunday with family at the living room . NIGHT TIME :O haha . earlier , that evening . me and daddy watched "crank" . the movie is like about life of a gangster and sex . its UNCENSORED . lol , my dad's cool . waaaaaay cooler than every other dads . HAHA . the funny part was , my mom suggested to watch it but as soon as the movie started me and dad already heard someone snoring -.- riiiiiite .

on saturday , me and soph planned on going out for skating . cause our new hockey friends asks us to go there ! they were there at the ice skating rink . so we were so lame and excited to meet new ppl xD so , we planned and planned and plaaaannned . and at last , we didnt make it . no transport . and it took us for 2 hours to plan ! such a waste of time . that night , went to klcc ON DEEPAVALI :D daddy drove all the way there cause i just wantd to eat "fajitas" at san francisco steak house . he was nice lately :p well , at times .

about the title . i had a few scaaars all my BOODAAYY . haha . reminds me of mr.bean at school art episode where the artist said , "THE BOOODAYY" . so , hurmm . i used to be a FREAKIN TOMBOY before i entered gymnasts when i was standard 3 . hahaha . i never played barbie , always hated all those skirts , sandles , blouse and stuffs . i'm always with my special bike at home . with my paaals who lives in the condo . i mean , its neighbours :p with my bmx , and my freaky baggy pants , with sleeveless but long hair . it was about to reach my ass . butt . and banks fringe . it was like lady gaga :O so , i was pretty ROUGH and hyper active . always move around , cant really stay still .

once i was so excited to go to MPH . and i ran through the escelator and the stairs thingy stucked on my under knee* . another time , my head termasuk the bucu of the table . it was pretty sharp . the latest , i fell at school . IN THE FREAKIN DRAIN . LOL . but no one saw me except for two of my friends . HAHAHAH xD it was fuckin embarassing . stupp -__-'

"above this , was written earlier"

now is the real moment of posting . if u only get it .

pains , i'm feeling the pain of loosing a part of me . its missing , and it cant be heal . it cant be heal by anyone . i dont believe in such words as i'm gonna make it heal . its just a lie , i cant take it and cant help it . i'm fuckin sober . all i wanna know is , untill when is this gonna keep on going ? *burning

new old*

2009-10-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

sophie found this video . SO AMAZING . listen . he's only 15 -,-

too happy -.- just came back from sunway

went for skating today . nothing much . FINNALLY made a few close hockey player friends

that we finally talk to after all this while they were just starring and starring . HAHA .

weirdo's and now they finally know how crazy am i. HAHA l stupid

salalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaaa . and i wanna post this ; HAHAHA .

i got myself into this , i'll get myself out . i made up my mind to leave , woooh scream of happiness out loud .

i'm tired of pretending and there's nothing to give in . i;m not gonna waste my time cause my life in mine .

a day out with my two buddies . hehehe

2009-10-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

dont bother the title . NEVER . went to ou with audrey and ashley . we ate at charms and went to take pictures in the fitting room . WELL , BEING LAME AT TIMES MAKES US FUN ? there's nothing wrong with it ! hahaha . here comes the lame pictures :DD

we just grab those -.-

mind us

this is audrey

she loves tht whitey dress . awww , adurey pretty :)

mind audrey's peace -.-

caution ! : do not waste 9.90 on this soup . it sucks ! the noodles sucks ! chewy . blueek :@

attention ! this is better . asam laksa . the best :@

her meal is nice . random actually but its very nice .

the end of ou with audrey and ashley :D

went back to ashley's house around 3 and went to sunway . from ou , house , sunway -.- believe that ? haha , bought a few clothes and ate at tony romas . came back home at 10 i guess ? now , presenting sunway pyramid's pictures . ahahhaha . so lame -.-

aunty azura . mom's younger sister . under that is mummy's sexay bodaaaay xD

again , this is prttier :p

now,online-ing msn .add me then ; starbucks.asshole@hotmail.com

days through hell

2009-10-10T06:28:00.000-07:00

i'm very bad at titles . haha , so take notes : dont bother about my titles . lol . so , WHAT UP DAAWG ? today's plan was to nurul's open house . and i did . went there about 2 . it was AWKWARD since i lost contact with everyone from old school . LOL , dont need to know where was i from . guess ? dont ask . HAHA . so anywayy , i was wearing this orange top with 3-corter pants and everyone else was wearing baju kurung . quite EMBARRASSED . but its worth it tho i was shy , cause it was HOT ! phewww , i sweat alot . imagine other ppl who wore baju kurung , kebaya and make ups and stuffs -.- luckily i wore tht simple with a sling bag . but everyone was starring 8O i hate ppl starring . i cant stand still when ppl stare .hurmm , in the car , mummy did said "i'll pick you up here at the junction at 4 ! dont be late !". guess what ? and i waited till 5 . NO SIGN OF EM' . like shit ! :@ then they finalllllly reached and it was about 5.30 . i was mad and didnt answer any of the questionsss that they ASKED . they cant keep quite -,- . as soon i reached home , i went lepak and they're all gone . like , WHAT A RELIEF . at last they leave me . better than see-ing their faces at home , i could die . or maybe kill myself . seriously , i was that mad . HAHA . so they went out and i got the house on my own . all is under controll :D

as you can see , this picture was taken in the car while waiting for my uncle . mummy took it . haha , and this picture is when she's tryyyying so hard to look small and thin as she can be -.- but she still remain two seats in the car at the back ^oo^

rotate urself

and this fat dude rite here is the sucker of the day -.- the lame-est , looser , partner in crime , and the pain on the ASS (!)

well , this is when she was nice to me . otw to nurul's open house. after that , well -.- jackass.

(say jackass everybody !! JACKASS!!) 

other pictures ; coming soon*

LATER YO !

its now alive

2009-10-09T07:18:00.000-07:00

 hye ppl , my life wasnt that good and ohh well , i came back on blogging . 

well , you must be wondering what happened to my old blog . i deleted it for some reason and supposedly not to tell anyone . i guess , i miss on blogging and something gets on my nerves ! LOL , my favourite dumbydumb enemy at school made her own blog and start bitching . i feel so unfair xD AHHAAH , lol . she used to read mine every single post i think . cause for all the times i posted and bitch about someone there's always school drama . one time i was bitching about her , and when we talked she said about my blog . WOOH isnt tht cool ? kan lutfi ? HAHAHA . well , tht's not the reason out of all this . its just i like to write something a little of me at times . follow by moods . anywayy , let me tell about what i've been doing for the past few months ? or idk ? as far as i remember .......

it was on thurday that me and a few schoolmates hang out at sunway . well , i went there cause i have class and after that damira told me she's gonna be there till night . so , i joined them and they celebrated jannah's birthday .

we went shisha , for long time we didnt . we went to tabshuh ? tashub ? tarbush ? IDK WHAT ITS CALLED ? its somewhere in sunway that we had shisha instead of naeb .

this is damira , sheesh i hate her purple ! mines better xD HAHA , i call her dumdum and down there with the black tudung is IKA. and the following picture is with DAHLIA :)

this adorable lady rite here is mrisha :D she's very nice . ahah and very pretty

this is june . i said i love her hair . PLEASE TAKE PICTURE WITH ME ! but instead she played with my camera and took only her hair . without the *FACE ! sheesh you junee

shisha shisha